start of winter depression
I was quite low feeling hopeless and uncertain things that were bogging me down were loneliness and purpose of employment. I overcame it after a week of low, by just starting to clean the apartment and cleaning the kitchen, made a quick meal and that activity rustled me back into motion. I realised that I need to be honest with what I want, that is the best way to avoid depression. If I tell myself that I will be happy with a few million dollars or so, that leads to depression, because I dont know what to do with that money. Therefore the core wants are something simpler, I want a home with a family and means to maintain the family, and work that fulfils me and keeps me engaged.